hey guys, sorry i haven’t written in a while, I’ve just had a lot on my plate.
Anyways today I found out that I could potentially have to deal with some people who i have tried to cut out of my life for an extra year, because of being in the same law degree. F.M.L
I do not like this. One bit. Not a happy camper. these people were cut for a reason, and to see or even (i hope not) have to talk to them again would just fucking irritate me to no end and honestly ruin my days when theyre in my class.
FFS! i just want a new start with this new year, new friends, new life, same me.
With a lot of my friends, I take the “Never fear, I am here” approach to their problems, and I love helping them and supporting them. But lately I have become increasingly frustrated at friends who cut themselves off from everyone, and become melodramatic over something that even I, being a self confessed perfectionist can conceed do not matter in the larger scheme of things.
I understand that sometimes you can be worn down by your problems, really, I do. and I know first hand what that feels like. But do not shut yourself off or lock yourself in your room over something that isn’t the end of the world, and that there are other ways around.
Its highly frustrating as a fellow friend to be shoved away when you are trying to be heartfelt, and to be honest, it is a pang to the heart.
Just talk, and don’t make permanent choices on temporary feelings
I was thinking about proposals the other day. No, I do not want to get married right now haha, but maybe sometime in the future.
I was thinking about if I would cry if I was proposed to. And after much thinking, I think I would bawl. From happiness, joy, relief, love etc etc.
I would cry because it would mean that I meant as much to that person as Im sure they would mean to me. It would mean I wasnt worthless, that someone actually loved me enough to offer the chance to spend the rest of my life with them. It would mean I was loved.
I am at the mercy of my hearts feelings at the moment, and their strength towards a long time friend, who happens to have a girlfriend.
I won’t try anything, but the selfish part of me wants him so badly.
I sit here listening to Hold Me Now by the Thompson Twins and I wonder if he has the same feelings for me, like a connection or mutual understanding that neither of us will act on at the moment.
And this is not the first time it has happened. Before, over many occasions, we have liked each other and our timing never seemed to match up.
Either way, these feelings aren’t going to disappear overnight, and I’d love to hear your thoughts on the matter, either by comment or email at email@example.com
Well, I am back from my holiday, and can I say it was very interesting.
I suppose this was a learning experience in the sense that I have realised I will no longer be staying in contact with any of the original group I went on schoolies with except one person.
We met up with some friends, and ended up crashing at theirs for 2 and ahalf days because we had a better time their than we did with the others. These guys we hardly talked to all year, and were just friends, but now after 2 days we had so much fun that we are all closer together. Funny how life works.
I do not regret my schoolies experience, rather I believe it was one of the best weeks of my life. 🙂
Well, tomorrow I shall be leaving for Port Macquarie with 5 friends for a week of schoolies vacation. I am looking forward to it even though I will not be drinking 🙂
So I thought I would leave you with a post about something that my friend went through.
Her boyfriend’s mother was worried she would get pregnant on this holiday (which there is no chance of happening) and it made me wonder, why is the mother only targeting her? It takes two to tango, and you can’t just magically get pregnant without sperm.
Why does place the blame squarely on the girls shoulders, that if she gets pregnant its all her fault? Its both the guy and girl’s fault, because neither can control their sperm or eggs, yet they can take precautions and make the choice to not have sex.
Its interesting i think, and I also see it as the start or sneak peek of problems that they will have in the future if their relationship continues into the long term.
But whilst it is still in the affectionate, “Lustful” period, have fun and enjoy yourself 🙂
See you guys next week!
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So i decided that since i seem to be getting a few views and follows here and there, i would name myself. Obviously its not my real name, but I like the name Athena, its all Greek-y and she was the Goddess of wisdom, so I think it fits with what my blog is about. Also, the new avatar i put up isn’t me either, isn’t this mystery so exciting!
Yeah, adding some mystery up in this bitch (excuse my French) but if you ever want to send me an email, send it to email@example.com and ill try to answer it ASAP
Furthermore, since i am on a three month break, i am just posting whenever i feel like it, but next week i will not be since i am going on a schoolies vacation- not to surfers haha
but i shall update probably friday, and eventually when i hear from a university and get my timetable, I will pencil in a set day that i will blog. But until then, happy random blog posts!
Thanks you guys, this actually makes me feel like people care about what i have to say.
Much love c: