Back with a list of problems…

hey guys, sorry i haven’t written in a while, I’ve just had a lot on my plate.

Anyways today I found out that I could potentially have to deal with some people who i have tried to cut out of my life for an extra year, because of being in the same law degree. F.M.L

I do not like this. One bit. Not a happy camper. these people were cut for a reason, and to see or even (i hope not) have to talk to them again would just fucking irritate me to no end and honestly ruin my days when theyre in my class.

FFS! i just want a new start with this new year, new friends, new life, same me. 

Frustrating Friends

With a lot of my friends, I take the “Never fear, I am here” approach to their problems, and I love helping them and supporting them. But lately I have become increasingly frustrated at friends who cut themselves off from everyone, and become melodramatic over something that even I, being a self confessed perfectionist can conceed do not matter in the larger scheme of things.

I understand that sometimes you can be worn down by your problems, really, I do. and I know first hand what that feels like.  But do not shut yourself off or lock yourself in your room over something that isn’t the end of the world, and that there are other ways around. 

Its highly frustrating as a fellow friend to be shoved away when you are trying to be heartfelt, and to be honest, it is a pang to the heart. 

Just talk, and don’t make permanent choices on temporary feelings

-RANT OVER-

Random Flow of an Idea

I was thinking about proposals the other day. No, I do not want to get married right now haha, but maybe sometime in the future.

I was thinking about if I would cry if I was proposed to. And after much thinking, I think I would bawl. From happiness, joy, relief, love etc etc. 

I would cry because it would mean that I meant as much to that person as Im sure they would mean to me. It would mean I wasnt worthless, that someone actually loved me enough to offer the chance to spend the rest of my life with them. It would mean I was loved. 

 

Heart Wanting Something it Cannot Have

Well, Fuck. 
I am at the mercy of my hearts feelings at the moment, and their strength towards a long time friend, who happens to have a girlfriend. 

I won’t try anything, but the selfish part of me wants him so badly.

I sit here listening to Hold Me Now by the Thompson Twins and I wonder if he has the same feelings for me, like a connection or mutual understanding that neither of us will act on at the moment. 

And this is not the first time it has happened. Before, over many occasions, we have liked each other and our timing never seemed to match up. 

Either way, these feelings aren’t going to disappear overnight, and I’d love to hear your thoughts on the matter, either by comment or email at ventilation411@gmail.com 

much love,
Athena

Back in Familiarity

Well, I am back from my holiday, and can I say it was very interesting. 

I suppose this was a learning experience in the sense that I have realised I will no longer be staying in contact with any of the original group I went on schoolies with except one person. 

We met up with some friends, and ended up crashing at theirs for 2 and ahalf days because we had a better time their than we did with the others. These guys we hardly talked to all year, and were just friends, but now after 2 days we had so much fun that we are all closer together. Funny how life works.

I do not regret my schoolies experience, rather I believe it was one of the best weeks of my life. 🙂 
Talk soon 

Distance Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

Hey guys,

Well, tomorrow I shall be leaving for Port Macquarie with 5 friends for a week of schoolies vacation. I am looking forward to it even though I will not be drinking 🙂

So I thought I would leave you with a post about something that my friend went through.

Her boyfriend’s mother was worried she would get pregnant on this holiday (which there is no chance of happening) and it made me wonder, why is the mother only targeting her? It takes two to tango, and you can’t just magically get pregnant without sperm. 

Why does place the blame squarely on the girls shoulders, that if she gets pregnant its all her fault? Its both the guy and girl’s fault, because neither can control their sperm or eggs, yet they can take precautions and make the choice to not have sex. 

Its interesting i think, and I also see it as the start or sneak peek of problems that they will have in the future if their relationship continues into the long term.

But whilst it is still in the affectionate, “Lustful” period, have fun and enjoy yourself 🙂
See you guys next week!

Thanks for five followers, feel free to email me at ventilation411@gmail.com :3

Athena

Hey guys, 

So i decided that since i seem to be getting a few views and follows here and there, i would name myself. Obviously its not my real name, but I like the name Athena, its all Greek-y and she was the Goddess of wisdom, so I think it fits with what my blog is about. Also, the new avatar i put up isn’t me either, isn’t this mystery so exciting! 

Yeah, adding some mystery up in this bitch (excuse my French) but if you ever want to send me an email, send it to ventilation411@gmail.com and ill try to answer it ASAP

Furthermore, since i am on a three month break, i am just posting whenever i feel like it, but next week i will not be since i am going on  a schoolies vacation- not to surfers haha 

but i shall update probably friday, and eventually when i hear from a university and get my timetable, I will pencil in a set day that i will blog. But until then, happy random blog posts!

Thanks you guys, this actually makes me feel like people care about what i have to say. 

Much love c:

Athena

Negativity

This topic is one which annoys me quite a bit. People (specifically Hipsters) saying the world is horrid and mankind is stupid and hasnt evolved and so on. 

Now, yes mankind has been especially stupid in the past and is today, but these people seem to ignore the countless majority which are smart and making a positive change in the world. People who donate to charity, who complete volunteer work, who make a positive change to society. And, despite what many say, religion is not the sole reason why they do it. They do it to help others less fortunate, and to strive for a better tomorrow. 

Furthermore, yes the world has its problems, and big ones at that, but you can’t just paint all humans with the same brush or just give up and condemn our world to spiral downwards. There is much more positive in the world than there is negative, yet as humans and through media we like to exaggerate and make it seem as if everyone is horrible and the world sucks. Besides, the world is becoming less violent as time passes, and many psychologists and professionals have proven this, look them up if you are interested. Human beings are evolving, and changing, albeit slowly, at least it is a start. We are the generation of positive change, towards the environment, others and the world. it will be hard, and take a long time, but eventually we will get there; and we do not need negativity to hamper us. 

And how about, instead of being so negative all the time, you get off your lazy complaining butts and help out in your community to create a positive change? Complaining about it isn’t going to change anything, and you know what, looking at life and the world is a positive light more often would do us all some good. 

this is not aimed at all people, just those who complain that the world is worse than it was, which is false when you look at history and past societies which were rampant with crime, horrid sexism and racism- which have dies down, although they have not completley vanished at all. 

Please just be positive, I dont know what it is with all this negativity, but i dont see how it will help us in the future, or even now. 

Smile once in a while, and realise that you are alive, and that is an amazing feat in itself, and that the world is a lot happier than people make it out to be, all the while not forgetting that there is bad, and this bad can be stopped and changed into something good if we try together. 

A Little Bit About Me

hey guys, 

since I didn’t really know what else to write about today, I thought I would give a little bit about myself so you can understand the context I am coming from. 

I live in Sydney, Australia, and I was born here. I love this country, and although there are stereotypes that Australians are racist, I can vouch that this is untrue (with a few minute exceptions) that Australia is actually a very multicultural and tolerant place. Furthermore, Australian humor is unlike any other. We make fun of nearly everything, and some may view this as racist, but it is not hateful, and if you cant laugh at yourself, who can you laugh at?

I am 17 and have recently finished high school, and hope to go on to university soon.

I am very opinionated, and I make up my own ideas and views based on both sides of the story, and I do not feel the need to follow what everyone else does.

I am currently trying to find an idea for a novel, which is pretty difficult, but I do hope it comes soon.

I ask that whilst on my blog you do not spread hate, you do not judge, nor do you make assumptions or nasty comments to anyone or anything. Please be a respectful person, and I am sure we will get along just fine 🙂 

True Colours

Its funny how since I’ve finished year 12 HSC and my highschool schooling life that people have begun to show their true colours.

I have a birthday party to go to tomorrow, and one of his best friends in not attending because, and i quote ” I do not want to get my hair wet”

We are going to Manly, and yes, there are beaches, but there is also an entire corso to sit and eat or shop. Like seriously, to blow off your best friends 18th because of some stupid shallow vapid reason is the ultimate spit in the face.

But then again, I guess we learnt what he was truly like in this situation..